The Story of a One-sided Lover

The Story of a One-sided Lover


People say one sided love is pure and it’s right from the core of the heart. To let the other people tear, break or kill you in the process of love is not called being madly in love it’s called being blinded in love. Even I was blinded by her or you can say I am still blinded by her. I beg love from her every second, hour, day and year. I can’t understand why the hell I am chasing the mirage.


I used to be the most confident guy in the world but when she came to my life. My smile has disappeared and it has been lost. It has been replaced by millions of tears which she will never notice. Most of the people will fall for somebody new, but one sided lover like me will fall for that girl again and again. Even I know that she can’t be mine but still, I love her every day. She ignores me like hell and I love her like heaven. Pain is the second word for one-sided love.

I always looked at her with the feelings of butterflies fluttering inside my tummy, but she sees me as a friend or maybe not even as that. “Just a friend,” she says. If I tell myself she cares about me, it will be a lie because she doesn’t.


She is a nice girl. Better than those whom I have met in the past. She smiles on everything, judges people secretly and never hurts anyone, not intentionally. She is straightforward and doesn’t shy away if she got some problem with someone she will speak right in front of them. I look right through her the way no one else ever has, and my eyes scream for her attention but her eyes never meet mine. I tried everything to get her attention got abused in the name of love, changed myself in trying to get love from her. But things are not always as they seem. People will never change but expectation and feeling for them might change.

So if you fall for someone you may tell the world that you have billions of reason to love them but do they have too?

But she should know that life is always easier for the one who’s loved because she has to do is love back instead of falling with the unknown. Oh God, why I can’t get over that girl why my eyes turn red when I think of her.

I’m not anyone’s first choice. I’m not anyone favourite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and I’m too special to them but I know there’s someone they will always choose over me.

My heart has resisted many broken promises from her but for how long it can suffer? And in this cold breeze, my heart was turned on fire by her due to broken promises again and again. This time my heart was not broken it was completed burned in the fire of broken promises. Now, I have decided to live my own life never ever I will fall in this painful place known as “Love”.

Oh God, now I will focus on my Goals rather than focus on Girls.

Tough! the moment you think you have garnered that strength, one glimpse of that person will take you to the previous position.

Sincerely,
The boy who is fed up of One-Sided love.

 


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Hi, I'm Caleb, a 22 (almost) years old ambivert. Either I prefer to talk less or go on blabbering endlessly. I write to vent my feelings, to discover myself, to escape reality. I write to be me.